Merry Christmas!

December 25, a date that each and everyone of us gathers and celebrates the birth of the One and Only Savior, JESUS CHRIST!

Every time this day comes around the corner, all people get their feet on the ground and bounce to their homes to celebrate this one of the most unforgettable event in their lives. We, as Filipinos and even other races believes that this is a celebration of close family ties as well as a happy memory to children because Santa Claus is also coming to town! Every day counts before Christmas for the families to prepare and welcome the birth of Jesus Christ.

This day is a celebration of families all over the world. Another good thing to do is to help and make all the people jump in happiness most especially the kids because of the blessings that they receive. Helping the people who suffered from great devastation of human life such as calamities will complete their happiness during Christmas day. Sufferings may be a part of our lives and that's the reason why we, who were given so much blessings and doesn't face great heartache because of losing loved ones, will give them much greater happiness and joy and this will make them stronger and fight until to their last breath.

This is also a day of forgiveness. We sinned, we make mistakes towards other people. We commit great sin that hurts other person's feelings. Thus, this time, if not a wrong time, we forgive each other because this is how we welcome him, Jesus Christ. Welcoming him with no sin, no mistake, no guilt, no cries, no sorrow will totally make his Father great.

So to everyone who are reading my blog, think of this, we celebrate Christmas every year on the day of December 25 but we face it with great despair and sorrow, then what is the point of why we celebrate it? So we need to celebrate this special day with a smile, heartwarming joy and endless love for Jesus Christ to be happy because he knows that each and everyone of us, individuals, families and communities celebrate his special day with the greatest and biggest smile of all!

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE!

tHe SiLeNt ChRiStMaS hEaLiNg PoEm

Liwanag nang Dilim at Pag-asa

    I.       Buhay na puno nang hinagpis

    Puso na sakit ang tiniis

    Ikaw na siyang nagdusa

    Liwanag na bigay nang tala.

    II.    Suot ang dignidad na hawak

    Ikaw ang nagging pag-asa

    Sa oras nang pag-higik

    Ikaw ang pumigil ng luha.

                Sa oras ng pangangailangan

   Ikaw ang siyang tanging sandalan

   Sa mga panahon ng kagipitan

   Ikaw ang siyang tanging kasama.

               Pinagpala ang kamay na dangal

   Pinaghilom ang pusong-bato

   Pinagtibay ang loob na bukal

   Pinasaya ang simbolo ng Pasko.

    III.  Ngayo’y ikaw ang siyang naghirap

    Nilamon nang sakit ng nakaraan

    Nawala ang lahat nang alapaap

    Nakulong sa mundo ng kawalan.

    IV. Ako na iyong inalagaan

   Ibabalik ang pagkalinga

   Dahil iyong sinabi minsan

   Pagmamahal ang siyang ligaya.

             Sa oras ng pangangailangan

   Ikaw ang siyang tanging sandalan

   Sa mga panahon ng kagipitan

   Ikaw ang siyang tanging kasama.

              Pinagpala ang kamay na dangal

   Pinaghilom ang pusong-bato

   Pinagtibay ang loob na bukal

   Pinasaya ang simbolo ng Pasko.

   V.    Ngayo’y sabay na haharapin

   Tanging hangad ay kaligayahan

   Pagtulong sa kapwa’y tunay na diwa

   Nang Pasko at nang bawat isa.

              Pinagpala ang kamay na dangal

   Pinaghilom ang pusong-bato

   Pinagtibay ang loob na bukal

   Pinasaya ang simbolo ng Pasko.

                   Nars ikaw ang liwanag nang dilim

          Ang tunay na bigay nang Maykapal.

LETTERS....

Another activity was done in our self awareness. Another bunch of words were express once more. Another outlets of feelings was poured down and revelations intensifies the pains of knowing what other people see through us.

Criticisms and judgments were once witnessed again by the innocent ears. But the good thing is, no one cries though I must admit I was very nervous on every detail that they blurt 'cause I'm actually at the bottom of the deepest secret ever. This activity once proved again the worth of friendship and trust with each other as well as cooperation and open communication that alleviates the moods of everyone. I must admit I wasn't able to defend myself from the negative comments but I myself already knew these so there's nothing to defend.

This activity showered us with the words of everyone in the group. It seems that this activity really challenges the strength and power of the bond of friendship as well as to break through oneself. But yes, we needed to accept every little word that we threw to each other because it is not enough that you know yourself, you can be better if you know what other people think and knows about you. We do things consciously and unconsciously thus we may not know every action that we do without listening to other. Consider them and don't disregard them, but it's up to you how you interpreted these painful revelations but I believe this will make you more stronger and way more better person.

Let me tell first what are those positive point of views of beloved people. First, I am PATIENT. Of course I am patient, why? 'Cause of these beloved laptop of mine where I am actually typing at the moment all these ridiculous, hilarious dramas of my life, it always log you know. But the truth is that I never expected to be a patient person 'cause I EASILY LOOSE CONTROL MY ANGER and that is one of their dislikes, and at the same time, I'm actually shocked that no one pointed out that I'm MOODY! I will tell you at once why am I like this at the bottom of this post. Second, I'm EASY TO DEAL WITH, KIND, HUMBLE, GENEROUS, FUN, JOLLY, RELIABLE and DISCIPLINED. Well I don't exactly know why I'm this kind of person, but maybe it occurs naturally to a person like the ones who told me these attitudes. One attitude cannot be reasoned out because this what you really are. Third one, RESPONSIBLE. I don't know but I'm not really that responsible enough because I only act upon instinct and worst, last minute work. But I must say that yes I'm responsible, why? Because I treated myself as an independent person when it comes to personal life and decision makings but as of now, not financially. Maybe if you give credit with all these posts, well just kidding. And the most shocking one that I myself don't even know if it's true, I have a SOFT-ANGEL VOICE! Well that's a first, I always thought my voice was like godzilla or gorilla because of the high pitch of my tone. And above all the positive comments I like, is being a TRUSTWORTHY PERSON THAT CAN EASILY BE TRUSTED WITH SECRETS. Well let just say I'm like this because I learned the ART OF SILENCE AND LISTENING. I will further explain this to you later.

Now we go to the negative comments that I've received in which I've already mention the first one. Second, INSISTING WHAT I WANT AND KNOW EVEN SOMETIMES WHAT I KNOW IS WRONG. Well sometimes we can be like this especially when it comes to defending yourself and even if you are a competitive person. But I never become competitive, I actually give way to those people I knew that deserves more than I do. But I accepted this and try to think first before saying. And this is actually in correlation with the third dislike which is, DON'T PROPOSE ANYTHING THAT IS DOUBTFUL AND IMPOSSIBLE, PUT YOUR WORDS INTO ACTIONS. Well maybe sometime, I can think of more something very unusual and mysterious then I can put them into actions, just kidding. And the last and best negative comment ever that even I, myself knew from the very start, BE OPEN! EXPRESS YOUR FEELINGS FREELY AND TELL IT TO ANYONE!

Yes, I am a CLOSE PERSON and I want to take this privilege to tell you why. The whole story started when I was in 3rd grade elementary. I was sick that day but I'd choose to go to school rather than absenting myself just because of this silly colds and fever. During the recess time, I am with my "friends" but that snack time turned to be the MOST DISASTROUS, SADDEST EVENT OF MY LIFE that humiliated and cause TO LOSE MY TRUST to every single person in the world including my parents. They talked about me whisper to whisper looking straightly in my eyes and I suspected that they are really talking about me. I got mad, went back to the classroom and everything seemed to be dark that I cannot see a single person, then they came. The bundle of friends whom I thought to be my real friends were actually grasping and looking anxious that their dearest friend was really sick. And right through there, I heard them clearly and saying, "CAN WE JUST BE HER FRIEND AGAIN!" SAPUL! What do you expect me to do? Accept that bitch offer? I AM NOT YET INSANE, MURDERERS OF FEELINGS! 

And that is were all began of the attitude of keeping silence. I choose this behavior because I'm afraid that this will happen again. Yes the ART OF SILENCE teach me to observe, criticize and judge silently until they will be the one to ask me. I've never trusted people again and stayed quiet even though I want to tell the world he/she is the dirtiest person! I don't wan't to hurt and I don't want to be hurt. But in high school I learned to be more open, but still I select what I say and not to tell everything and trusted people more. Up until now, but the difference is that I tell all my irritations and frustrations about a certain person to another person and not directly to that person. That's why I lack communication and this where complications started . And that is exactly the IRONY of everything. I don't want people to talk about me behind my back so I stayed silent but I myself is doing talking about other people to other behind their backs. Only because I cannot already keep silent and I'm bursting out of anger already. But I can do to remain silent then I will. But let me thank this ART OF SILENCE because I also learned to keep secrets.

I hope my friends will understand this. I have my fears that's why I remain a CLOSE PERSON. But I'll try my best to be more open now. Let me thank you for all the likes and dislikes, because if it's not because of these then I cannot improve myself. I know WHO I AM, but NOW, I know MORE WHO I AM!

Hurting Toe

A miserable, embarrassing moment occurred once more. My innocent, lovable, pretty toe was hurt once again. Why do my toe need to suffer like this? It pains me a lot whenever I see it bumped to those out-of-the-class solid walls.

It was today, December 6 at past lunch time, when I'm searching for a very delicious beverage to fill in my suffering mouth from thirst. Then I found what I'm looking for, the beverage that energizes me, as far as my friends are concerned, STING. But then, when I'm going back to my precious chair in the canteen to continue eating, I suddenly bumped that bitch of box of bottled water located in the middle in between the refs of beverages and glass wall container of so much carbs but really appetizing chicherias. How s*** is that?

My toe hurt the most. I'm lucky enough not to dumped my face in the ground and maintain my balance because I grip firmly on my classmate's shoulder. I'm also lucky because only my classmates witnessed my bad chic look embarrassment. But my TOE! It hurts a lot! I cannot even move my toe now. Well, not that I cannot fully move it, but the pain radiates through the veins of my toe and I cannot even dorsiflex or plantar flex it. My TOE! Once suffered again, when I was in high school and now, NOW!

This is all because of my clumsiness and forgetfulness. Am I aging now? ARGH! CLUMSINESS GO AWAY! LET MY POOR TOE LIVE NORMALLY WITHOUT PAIN AND SCREAMING!

MIDDLE CHILD SYNDROME

"Middle Child Syndrome"


Upon hearing this words, what can you think of? Can you have any guess on the meaning of this syndrome? A lot of people tell that this doesn't exist. But upon researching the net, I found out that I'm not the only one who suffered from this hilarious sickness.

Middle Child Syndrome occurs on those children who are born in the middle of a three-children family. They often get the least attention from their parents because the eldest gets all the attention and authority while the youngest gets all the love and security of the parents. So what's left with the middle child? NOTHING!

As I've already mentioned in one of my post, I am suffering from this syndrome ever since I went away from my dark past and move on with my new path of life. Though I didn't intend to got away from my parents most especially my feelings towards them, but it just occurred whenever I saw my siblings got what they want. As for me, I need to jump across the sea of nails, get through the hole of needle, fry and toast my face on a burning wood and shout my soul for them to hear. Even I've tried hard to get full attention, they don't seem to be bothered asking me if I do need anything. Because in fact, I do need a huge thing that cannot count by monetary means. I need LOVE and ATTENTION!

As day pass, I've come to realize, this is way better than to stick my body to them. I grew up independently except financially of course. Even though I'm still seeking for full LOVE and ATTENTION, I can now stand on my own and can do everything I want that my siblings cannot do. I'm proud of myself that I became a figure of freedom and self-discipline person. I may not be as perfect as what my parents would want me to be, but I can shower them with goodness and love that I've never felt before from them. I'm the only hope of this world, that's why this non-sense, jerk, pitiful syndrome will never ever stop me from soaring and flying high to catch and reach my dreams.

To all of you that experiences MIDDLE CHILD SYNDROME, never let this sucking sickness stop you from showering yourself love and happiness. As well as, never stop believing and conquer the gold for this is the only reason that we can make anyone proud and say "WE ARE VERY MUCH PROUD OF YOU!" The sacrifices and challenges that we've faced will just fade away and we will make them realize "WE ARE THE MIDDLE CHILDREN AND WE ARE YOUR LEADERS!"

PS: A little reminder to all parents out there, be observant and caring enough to know if you are giving equal attention and love to your children especially the middle child. Don't be the first jerk being afraid to talk to your child. BE SENSITIVE!

The DA VINCI CODE

A fictional novel that murdered a billion minds. An altered truth that let's historian chuckle their beards long enough to cut it off. A thrilling-suspense story that for told a lie that Christianity have been protecting. But is what have been imprinted in the novel be accepted by people or ignored it specially Christians? Well why don't we take a look first at the content of the story before we either decide if these were real or just another conspiracy within the society of historians.

The whole story talked about the HOLY GRAIL in which the Church believes it was the CHALICE that was used by Jesus Christ during the Last Supper. But according to this hideous book, the HOLY GRAIL was a person who became a very popular historical figure in Christianity in a devilish image. The HOLY GRAIL is no other than 'MARY MAGDALENE THE PROSTITUTE'. Well, we identify her as one of the 12 apostles of Jesus Christ in which, Mary Magdalene was loved by Jesus Christ more than the other apostles according to Peter. In this way, we could only imagine how Dan Brown stated this book in most devilish way he can.

With the use of the most appreciative wonderful work of art of famous painter, Leonardo Da Vinci, THE LAST SUPPER, Brown extracted these fictional truths about the life of Jesus Christ. According to him, in the painting of Leonardo, the Chalice was not present if you will truly look at it. You can saw glasses of wines but you will never see a single Chalice. Hence, Brown said that the chalice was hidden on the space between Mary Magdalene and Jesus Christ. Another conspiracy story on the book that make the minds of people grumble in the depth of their breathe was Mary Magdalene and Jesus Christ got married and they produced a miraculous image of a child. Of course, who would want to believe this right? What a wreck joke, isn't it? But how can we judge this one if the only person who only conquer the truth was a child of the Christian Church? Conspiracies says that the bible was not fully released with all the true contents during the life of Jesus Christ and some of the most important treason were deleted by Christians.

Another conspiracy extracted by Brown was the Priory of Sion that protects the real identity and deepest secret of Mary Magdalene. The Priory of Sion was once composed of Leonardo himself, the Grandmaster of all Grandmaster. Other includes high society known personalities such as Albert Einstein and others.

Whether these things that was told in the book was real or just a result of the playful mind of Dan Brown, we should not be affected and our faith to HIM should remain. Either the conspiracies that have been told should not alter the way we believe in Him. We should not regard it as an anti-Christ book, because if you really have a strong trust and faith in Him, then nothing will going to kill your innocent yet abusive mind. This is what Dan Brown wants, test your faith in Him and challenge your mind to whether you can really identify a fiction from factual stories. Because HISTORY can be changed by the person who make it and may choose the way in which people will probably think that it is the truth but the real truths lays on those words used by historians. HISTORY manipulates us including HIS own history!

WHO AM I?

Who am I? A question most frequently asked to people, maybe a million times already since they've entered high school but still they don't know the answer to it.

This essay that they let us work with is really worth relieving. Why? Because through this compositions, we became aware of who we really are. You may know yourself now but you can know yourself more. This group activity so called "SELF-AWARENESS" let us overcome our fears and limitations. 

The group opened up lots of things most of it were hidden stories behind those happy-go-lucky faces. Damn it! I still do not want to realize I really cried because of this stupid activity. But my friends unconsciously get into the bottom of my heart and shed tears. The precious tears that I had once again run through my face 'cause the moment this activity started, I know tears will freely flow through my pink cheeks and make this cheeks suffer from wiping them. Most of them told story that relates to their family most specially towards their parents. I pity them and feel sorry for them because never once in my life that I saw my parents fight just because of pest cockroach, dirty frogs and life-threatening social climbers! I cried when they began telling about what they really feel towards these issues in their family because I've never experienced what they feel and why I shed tears. If only I could do anything to make them feel better but all I can do is listen to them and cry along with them.

Why is it that you need to have a cockroach in the pocket if you already have a couple lice on your head? Why do a person still need to look for other bitches if they already have the best bitch yet lovable person in their lives? Is temptation the reason for this? Or the love just faded away? Like one of them said, "para bang nakikisama na lang sila sa isa't isa dahil sa amin na mga anak nila at hindi na dahil may love pa sa kanilang dalwa." A lot of things to tell, but like what our teacher said, lets' leave everything in this classroom of whatever heard here will remain here and in our hearts. What's important now is you know that you have friends already who know your secrets and from now, they will be the first one to rely on if the worst will come over again.

I may also want to tell you that I cried because my own personality still don't realize why she's very insecure towards her siblings. I cannot really tell why but before, I'm like air who cannot be seen by other people, instead they just breath without even realizing that they may also have life to protect. I cried because of my father whom I consider to be my closest and best friend. He is the only one that let me do my thing. Maybe its true that they thought I'm being already an independent person, but I still want them to guide me. But that's before, now I grew up and grow more because of this people who is around me now.

Another special advice from our teacher is to "STUDY HARD." This is for us to know what's best and lighten up and give advice to people who intend to hurt an innocent heart in which this innocent heart only wants a true and unbreakable love that no one can defy. I need to study hard to loosen up my heart in my MIDDLE CHILD SYNDROME and look to be the best in all best things.

A simple advice to everyone. Whatever you're facing now, problem with hearts or injuries, do the best decisions that you can make. In this we will not be frustrated towards ourselves. Try to make your journals or right something on a blank sheet of paper or you can try what I'm doing now, typing and feeling the freedom of speech!

STORIES OF THE COMPLICATED MINDS

When I was sitting alone outside of our classroom, one of my friends came to me and said "Bez I will tell you something." Suddenly I get nervous whether what she is talking about. After a while, she started talking about it. After few days, I asked the "girl" if the issue is true. Then we started talking in algebraic expression.

She explained that 'X' have already 'Y' after their own story (in just two weeks! shocking!). Then she explained that 'Y' has been flirting with 'X' ever since they met. Because the issue is been surrounding everywhere, 'X' decided to make his relationship with'Y' is on its eternity. but according to the "girl", they will never ever had an eternal love. After explaining about it, she suddenly asked me if I know these some people. Then she started another bunch of stories with regards to the beautiful and handsome students with complicated minds of our beloved school.

First, let me tell you the first story. 'Ding' has a very mouthwatering relationship with 'Dong'. But one day, 'Dong' decided to end their story because 'Ding' has another 'Dong'! OH MY DING-DONG! But the second 'Dong' has also another 'Ding'! WHAT!? That's why they are calling the second 'Dong' as bitch, hypocrite, and a social climbers! (classmates that's too much).

Now, we are in the second story. This is between 'J' and 'D', a story of love martyrdom. 'J' has a crush with 'D' but sadly 'D' has a boyfriend (ouch!). but this is the irony, 'J' is willing to wait for 'D' until they break up with her boyfriend, however, 'D' is already flirting with 'J' (what a bitch!). How can you love someone who has a boyfriend but is flirting with you just because you had a crush on her! PATHETIC!

Let's go to another story. This is between 'T', 'K' and 'D', a love triangle story but I don't if its really a love triangle. 'T' has been in love with 'K' but she denies that she only had a crush on him. Then, 'K' started to communicate with 'T' (at last 'T' have him). Let's just say within  a year of having a mutual understanding, often times within that 1 year 'T' was always jealous of all the girls that surrounds 'K' which lead her friends speculate that they really had a relationship. After summer, when 'K' came back from Manila with his classmates because they had their 'internship' there, as opening of classes began, 'T' heard that 'K' is courting a certain 'D' already (WHAT!?). Then as day goes by, the issue between 'K' and 'D' is growing and growing leaving a heartbreak to 'T' (don't worry friend were here for you :(. Then 'K' continuously flirting with 'D' until now, but what is this, another girl is mad to 'D'. Oh my, what a relationship.

A simple advice to everyone, don't get involve yourself in a relationship if you are not ready to be hurt, to be surrounded by issues, to have a third-party relationship and most specially, if you are not ready to make your image as the bastard one! If you really want a relationship then have a decent life first so that other people can not step on your back and be the one who will make them shame on their selves.

LOVE PREVAILS

LOVE prevails everything on its way. All people go wild when it comes to loving someone and being loved by someone. But why is it need to be tested? Can we not just love and be loved in a simple manner? Are we not allowed to treasure this love without facing any downs?

LOVE has never been perfect. This is one thing that I can assure you. But we can make it perfect in our own way. 

TAKE this one as an example. What if you love someone but he never loves you back? How will you face these truth well in fact it's just the opposite of it? What if he also likes you but because he showered you with rudeness, heartless, thoughtless and pathetic? What if he really wants to plug your hand and twist it with his hand? These are just things that stands on the way for love to prevail.

MEN does not really know how to face their in just a simple manner as women do. They spend analyzing it through their lives. Women usually hunt their man interest if they really want it unlike men who needs 38 years before getting the women they like. What's worst! They cannot show their love easily to women because women are to arrogant and naive to understand them! Let them pull your face, extract your eyes and stick it to their face for you to know them better!

You will never know the real feelings of a person if you don't know how to read between the lungs, read beyond the heart and interpret through the brain. 

Thus even if we sometime face trials in making a relationship perfect, if we know each others feelings then this love prevails!

LET'S PLAY

RIDDLES.....

WHENEVER I TRY TO LOOK AT YOU, I ALWAYS CAUGHT YOU LOOKING AT ME.


I SEE THROUGH YOU, YOU SEE ME THROUGH. YOU ARE THE ONE WHO KNOWS ME BEST!


I ALWAYS RUN TO YOU WHENEVER I'M DEPRESSED, YOU ARE MY HERO BECAUSE GOD HAD GIVEN YOU.


ANSWER IT IF YOU KNOW! ANOTHER SET OF RIDDLES TOMORROW!

Sa Likod Ng Maskara

Sa likod ng maskara
Nakatago ang isang lihim
Lihim ng tunay na pagkatao
Nagkukubli sa bakod ng buhay.

Ang pagtatago ng tunay na ikaw
Ay pagpapahirap sa sarili
Takot na malaman ng iba
Ang tunay na hangarin sa buhay.

Nalilito sa katotohanan
Hindi alam kung ano ang paniniwalaan
Taong mga nagsisinungaling o
Mga taong hindi alam kung totoong nilalang.

Ngunit ang pagiging ikaw ay mahalaga
Ang pagpapakatotoo ay importante
Hindi ka magiging buo kung ikaw,
Nagtatago lamang sa isang maskara.

Dapat matutunang ipakita ang ikaw,
Magiging kompleto ang buhay
Kung ikaw ay magpapakita ng katatagan
At pagharap sa realidad ng buhay.

Huwag lang basta magtago,
Sa mga luhang inilalabas ng mga mata
Ang pagpapakita ng kahinaan
Pagpapakita na wala kang silbi.

Tanggalin ang maskara sa iyong buhay,
Hanapin ang tunay na pagkatao
Alamin ang mithiin sa buhay
At ikaw ay makakamit ang tunay na kaligayahan.