PrEtTy LitTle LiArS...

LIARS, PLASTICS, BACKSTABBERS, RUDE, JERKS, etc. Whatever you call them, they are ALL THE SAME! Why? Because they possesses the MOST UNNERVING, SARCASTIC AND IDIOPATHIC PERSONALITIES of human kind and animal species! They may be kind, friendly, generous, approachable, trustworthy but behind those ANGELIC faces and attitudes, they are the ENEMIES of DEMONS!

We have the so-called CONSCIENCE, wherein the elders told us that it is where the VOICE of the ALMIGHTY is hiding. That's the reason why we, way back in being a kid, teachers taught us to use this conscience. Whenever we sinned, we always pray and seek for His forgiveness. And the most common sin that we experience is LYING!

Yes, you may be right if you say that all of us commit lies and we do them in varying degrees. Others tend to lie by cheating, either in an examination because our minds are already exhausted with all around-the-clock questions or in a relationship 'cause you already want to break his/her love into pieces. Others may tell falsehood, either in covering a mistake that you, your friends or you loved ones including your family have committed or in beholding a sanctuary of truths and secrets that needs to be hidden from keen manipulative people in suspecting. Others may bear lies, either in protecting themselves or the ones been mentioned or in withholding the beliefs other may possess. Yes, all of us are LIARS!

But, NOT ALL LIES ARE LIES. There's always an exception to the rule. As of the things being listed above, these were, I believe, the exceptions in the rule. As being told, we have our conscience and seek for His forgiveness because the things enumerated above, are just being kept and known by you, Him, and the special groups. 

But is it acceptable if you lie in front of other people knowing that those people know that your just lying without any reasons? You are lying just because you doesn't want to lose and be the NUMBER ONE ALWAYS? I AM SO PROUD OF YOUR COMPETITIVENESS BOY! You try to question an act because you cannot accept that he was right and you were wrong! Arguing without a basis? Come on! Then when it's out turn to question your act, you became defensive and the other one became quiet because SHE knows that we were right and you're wrong again! And every time others act, both of you tell THEM what's the answer by doing "READ MY LIPS PEOPLE." WHAT A FANTASTIC TRICK! WE WERE REALLY IMPRESSED!

Where is that so-called CONSCIENCE in you, or is there really a THING in your soul? Maybe that's the reason why you commit lies without hesitations. I am really disappointed but what's the point of telling it to the teacher, if you, yourself lied within yourself!

-Just a little reminder to everyone, if you lie be sure not to be caught, because you lie with a reason, not, lying without a conscience! And by the way, you are really good together J&B!

LETTERS....

Another activity was done in our self awareness. Another bunch of words were express once more. Another outlets of feelings was poured down and revelations intensifies the pains of knowing what other people see through us.

Criticisms and judgments were once witnessed again by the innocent ears. But the good thing is, no one cries though I must admit I was very nervous on every detail that they blurt 'cause I'm actually at the bottom of the deepest secret ever. This activity once proved again the worth of friendship and trust with each other as well as cooperation and open communication that alleviates the moods of everyone. I must admit I wasn't able to defend myself from the negative comments but I myself already knew these so there's nothing to defend.

This activity showered us with the words of everyone in the group. It seems that this activity really challenges the strength and power of the bond of friendship as well as to break through oneself. But yes, we needed to accept every little word that we threw to each other because it is not enough that you know yourself, you can be better if you know what other people think and knows about you. We do things consciously and unconsciously thus we may not know every action that we do without listening to other. Consider them and don't disregard them, but it's up to you how you interpreted these painful revelations but I believe this will make you more stronger and way more better person.

Let me tell first what are those positive point of views of beloved people. First, I am PATIENT. Of course I am patient, why? 'Cause of these beloved laptop of mine where I am actually typing at the moment all these ridiculous, hilarious dramas of my life, it always log you know. But the truth is that I never expected to be a patient person 'cause I EASILY LOOSE CONTROL MY ANGER and that is one of their dislikes, and at the same time, I'm actually shocked that no one pointed out that I'm MOODY! I will tell you at once why am I like this at the bottom of this post. Second, I'm EASY TO DEAL WITH, KIND, HUMBLE, GENEROUS, FUN, JOLLY, RELIABLE and DISCIPLINED. Well I don't exactly know why I'm this kind of person, but maybe it occurs naturally to a person like the ones who told me these attitudes. One attitude cannot be reasoned out because this what you really are. Third one, RESPONSIBLE. I don't know but I'm not really that responsible enough because I only act upon instinct and worst, last minute work. But I must say that yes I'm responsible, why? Because I treated myself as an independent person when it comes to personal life and decision makings but as of now, not financially. Maybe if you give credit with all these posts, well just kidding. And the most shocking one that I myself don't even know if it's true, I have a SOFT-ANGEL VOICE! Well that's a first, I always thought my voice was like godzilla or gorilla because of the high pitch of my tone. And above all the positive comments I like, is being a TRUSTWORTHY PERSON THAT CAN EASILY BE TRUSTED WITH SECRETS. Well let just say I'm like this because I learned the ART OF SILENCE AND LISTENING. I will further explain this to you later.

Now we go to the negative comments that I've received in which I've already mention the first one. Second, INSISTING WHAT I WANT AND KNOW EVEN SOMETIMES WHAT I KNOW IS WRONG. Well sometimes we can be like this especially when it comes to defending yourself and even if you are a competitive person. But I never become competitive, I actually give way to those people I knew that deserves more than I do. But I accepted this and try to think first before saying. And this is actually in correlation with the third dislike which is, DON'T PROPOSE ANYTHING THAT IS DOUBTFUL AND IMPOSSIBLE, PUT YOUR WORDS INTO ACTIONS. Well maybe sometime, I can think of more something very unusual and mysterious then I can put them into actions, just kidding. And the last and best negative comment ever that even I, myself knew from the very start, BE OPEN! EXPRESS YOUR FEELINGS FREELY AND TELL IT TO ANYONE!

Yes, I am a CLOSE PERSON and I want to take this privilege to tell you why. The whole story started when I was in 3rd grade elementary. I was sick that day but I'd choose to go to school rather than absenting myself just because of this silly colds and fever. During the recess time, I am with my "friends" but that snack time turned to be the MOST DISASTROUS, SADDEST EVENT OF MY LIFE that humiliated and cause TO LOSE MY TRUST to every single person in the world including my parents. They talked about me whisper to whisper looking straightly in my eyes and I suspected that they are really talking about me. I got mad, went back to the classroom and everything seemed to be dark that I cannot see a single person, then they came. The bundle of friends whom I thought to be my real friends were actually grasping and looking anxious that their dearest friend was really sick. And right through there, I heard them clearly and saying, "CAN WE JUST BE HER FRIEND AGAIN!" SAPUL! What do you expect me to do? Accept that bitch offer? I AM NOT YET INSANE, MURDERERS OF FEELINGS! 

And that is were all began of the attitude of keeping silence. I choose this behavior because I'm afraid that this will happen again. Yes the ART OF SILENCE teach me to observe, criticize and judge silently until they will be the one to ask me. I've never trusted people again and stayed quiet even though I want to tell the world he/she is the dirtiest person! I don't wan't to hurt and I don't want to be hurt. But in high school I learned to be more open, but still I select what I say and not to tell everything and trusted people more. Up until now, but the difference is that I tell all my irritations and frustrations about a certain person to another person and not directly to that person. That's why I lack communication and this where complications started . And that is exactly the IRONY of everything. I don't want people to talk about me behind my back so I stayed silent but I myself is doing talking about other people to other behind their backs. Only because I cannot already keep silent and I'm bursting out of anger already. But I can do to remain silent then I will. But let me thank this ART OF SILENCE because I also learned to keep secrets.

I hope my friends will understand this. I have my fears that's why I remain a CLOSE PERSON. But I'll try my best to be more open now. Let me thank you for all the likes and dislikes, because if it's not because of these then I cannot improve myself. I know WHO I AM, but NOW, I know MORE WHO I AM!

MIDDLE CHILD SYNDROME

"Middle Child Syndrome"


Upon hearing this words, what can you think of? Can you have any guess on the meaning of this syndrome? A lot of people tell that this doesn't exist. But upon researching the net, I found out that I'm not the only one who suffered from this hilarious sickness.

Middle Child Syndrome occurs on those children who are born in the middle of a three-children family. They often get the least attention from their parents because the eldest gets all the attention and authority while the youngest gets all the love and security of the parents. So what's left with the middle child? NOTHING!

As I've already mentioned in one of my post, I am suffering from this syndrome ever since I went away from my dark past and move on with my new path of life. Though I didn't intend to got away from my parents most especially my feelings towards them, but it just occurred whenever I saw my siblings got what they want. As for me, I need to jump across the sea of nails, get through the hole of needle, fry and toast my face on a burning wood and shout my soul for them to hear. Even I've tried hard to get full attention, they don't seem to be bothered asking me if I do need anything. Because in fact, I do need a huge thing that cannot count by monetary means. I need LOVE and ATTENTION!

As day pass, I've come to realize, this is way better than to stick my body to them. I grew up independently except financially of course. Even though I'm still seeking for full LOVE and ATTENTION, I can now stand on my own and can do everything I want that my siblings cannot do. I'm proud of myself that I became a figure of freedom and self-discipline person. I may not be as perfect as what my parents would want me to be, but I can shower them with goodness and love that I've never felt before from them. I'm the only hope of this world, that's why this non-sense, jerk, pitiful syndrome will never ever stop me from soaring and flying high to catch and reach my dreams.

To all of you that experiences MIDDLE CHILD SYNDROME, never let this sucking sickness stop you from showering yourself love and happiness. As well as, never stop believing and conquer the gold for this is the only reason that we can make anyone proud and say "WE ARE VERY MUCH PROUD OF YOU!" The sacrifices and challenges that we've faced will just fade away and we will make them realize "WE ARE THE MIDDLE CHILDREN AND WE ARE YOUR LEADERS!"

PS: A little reminder to all parents out there, be observant and caring enough to know if you are giving equal attention and love to your children especially the middle child. Don't be the first jerk being afraid to talk to your child. BE SENSITIVE!

WHO AM I?

Who am I? A question most frequently asked to people, maybe a million times already since they've entered high school but still they don't know the answer to it.

This essay that they let us work with is really worth relieving. Why? Because through this compositions, we became aware of who we really are. You may know yourself now but you can know yourself more. This group activity so called "SELF-AWARENESS" let us overcome our fears and limitations. 

The group opened up lots of things most of it were hidden stories behind those happy-go-lucky faces. Damn it! I still do not want to realize I really cried because of this stupid activity. But my friends unconsciously get into the bottom of my heart and shed tears. The precious tears that I had once again run through my face 'cause the moment this activity started, I know tears will freely flow through my pink cheeks and make this cheeks suffer from wiping them. Most of them told story that relates to their family most specially towards their parents. I pity them and feel sorry for them because never once in my life that I saw my parents fight just because of pest cockroach, dirty frogs and life-threatening social climbers! I cried when they began telling about what they really feel towards these issues in their family because I've never experienced what they feel and why I shed tears. If only I could do anything to make them feel better but all I can do is listen to them and cry along with them.

Why is it that you need to have a cockroach in the pocket if you already have a couple lice on your head? Why do a person still need to look for other bitches if they already have the best bitch yet lovable person in their lives? Is temptation the reason for this? Or the love just faded away? Like one of them said, "para bang nakikisama na lang sila sa isa't isa dahil sa amin na mga anak nila at hindi na dahil may love pa sa kanilang dalwa." A lot of things to tell, but like what our teacher said, lets' leave everything in this classroom of whatever heard here will remain here and in our hearts. What's important now is you know that you have friends already who know your secrets and from now, they will be the first one to rely on if the worst will come over again.

I may also want to tell you that I cried because my own personality still don't realize why she's very insecure towards her siblings. I cannot really tell why but before, I'm like air who cannot be seen by other people, instead they just breath without even realizing that they may also have life to protect. I cried because of my father whom I consider to be my closest and best friend. He is the only one that let me do my thing. Maybe its true that they thought I'm being already an independent person, but I still want them to guide me. But that's before, now I grew up and grow more because of this people who is around me now.

Another special advice from our teacher is to "STUDY HARD." This is for us to know what's best and lighten up and give advice to people who intend to hurt an innocent heart in which this innocent heart only wants a true and unbreakable love that no one can defy. I need to study hard to loosen up my heart in my MIDDLE CHILD SYNDROME and look to be the best in all best things.

A simple advice to everyone. Whatever you're facing now, problem with hearts or injuries, do the best decisions that you can make. In this we will not be frustrated towards ourselves. Try to make your journals or right something on a blank sheet of paper or you can try what I'm doing now, typing and feeling the freedom of speech!

Be True To Yourself

If you want a life in the future try to be true to yourself. First you need to find yourself. Start finding yourself by your hobbies and discover your real talent. Talent and hobby are closely have the same meaning. This two will end up as yourself. Yourself reflects to your hobbies. Don't be afraid on facing who you really are because this will help in the future.

If your not able to find yourself by your hobbies try other things.Try to find yourself by surfing the internet or your computer. You will not know that your finding now the reality of life. Don't stick to one. If you know that you have an inborn talent, find a way to develop it. If you really want a thing try to develop it. Just be yourself. Being true to yourself is not only a childish game. This will refer you on what you will be in most mature stage of life.

You don't need to scared on what will you discover. If know that you're able to be want you are don't be afraid. Be proud on what you have. One more thing, find yourself in you. This is the last thing that you can do if you're not able to find youself on your hobbies or by surfing the internet. Your interest in life beautiful. If you can't do this thing, you'll not be able to be true to yourself. Find a way by yourself.

A life hiding by your real personality will never help you in the future.Be proud of what you are. What the difference about hiding yourself and just be what you really are? A question that someone don't know the answer. If you have enough confident on yourself tell everybody about who you really are. Don't be ashamed. Trust yourself as you trust other people. Your very lucky if you have lovely personality. Tells yourself that you are the most wonderful person.

Forget what other people told about your face. More important is your inner self not at the outer. Those who insult you by what you are in outside, they are those who don't know how to appreciate real beauty. They are idiot. Just believe on yourself and ignore people who have low IQ's. Right now most important is you should be true to yourself and just be happy of what you are now.