Untrustworthy friend.

The people you thought to be your trustworthy friends only became your untrustworthy enemies.

How can you even laugh when you are hurting someone? How can you even smile when you are putting a person in the graves of hell?

Well.

There is one definite answer.

Because you do not know you are destroying one's life already. And you do not know, you are worser than the person you are trying to destroy.

I left. You stayed. We became distant.

But as we go on the separate ways, I came to learn, distance is not the problem.

Because it is the trust that became the reason why we separated. You talk behind my back without hesitation. While I did everything I could to keep your darkest secrets. And yet, you were the one who destroyed me. You talk trash about me to which it is already under the belt. You enjoyed sharing my attitudes and personalities to everyone as if you know more about me.

But you are wrong.

You are the reason why I became like this. None of these attitudes will come out if you had not tested me.

I am not perfect, and yes, I have my flaws. I have negative sides and negative attitudes. But I also know how to stop on track when it is needed.

How about you? Do you even know how to shut your perfect filtered mouth? Do you even know you are worser than me in having a bad attitude? Do you even know that your personality is worser than me?

I have trusted you and yet, you have destroyed. I just hope it won't return to you all the badmouthing you have done to me. I do hope you will have good conscience until to the end of time.

To a dear untrustworthy friend.

A tree growing with greenery leaves
In the deepest of a gloomy abyss
Surrounded with beautiful flies
Glowing the lifeless night.

A garden full of blossoming flowers
In the darkest of lonely hours
Circled by wondrous butterflies
Gleaming the frightful lives.

This is me
This is you.
A growing tree
A blooming flower.

The leaves that grows
Is me who grew
The flower that blooms
Is you who bloom.

My leaves grew because of you
Your flowers blossomed because of me.
The gloomy abyss became blissful
The lonely hour became cheerful.

Together, we make each other
Together, we complete each other
Without me, there is no you.
Without you, there is no me.

But as our time goes by,
Me and you also pass by.
It became me without you
It became you without me.

You laugh with others.
While I laugh at myself
You smiled at others
While I smiled at myself.

The leaves started to fall,
The flowers withered.
The gloomy abyss deepened,
The lonely hour darkened.

The tree became lifeless
The garden became hideous.
Deceived by the trust,
Fooled by the kindness.

But the tree became dreamy again
That was destroyed by the masked gentleness.
The leaves grew lively again
That was shattered by the masked tenderness.

SEVENTEEN BIAS: MOON JUNHUI

WEN JUNHUI or more commonly known to all Carats out there and in the entire universe as SEVENTEEN MOON JUNHUI is a member of one of the most successful Korean boy group in the entire planet, SEVENTEEN.

He is a part of the performance unit of the group that is mainly responsible for the choreography and dancing. He is a lead dancer and a sub-vocalist (but for me, he is one of the lead vocalist).

And, HE IS MY BIAS.

ALWAYS.

But anyway, all Seventeen members are my bias because it is really hard to only choose one among the pool of 13 talented and skilled boys who always delivers powerful and satisfying music, song and performances.

But Jun is the first one I noticed when I discovered the group.

First reason, because he definitely looked like Super Junior Heechul. But in every reverse you can see, they only look like each other. Their charisma are both in different level.

Second reason, because of his unearthly handsome face. Seriously, I always see a lot of visuals in the Kpop scene but there is no one compared to the beautiful, handsome features of this guy. Now, don't get mad because I am 100% sure that all members of Seventeen are all handsome. It is just that Jun possessed something I cannot explain why for me, he is the most handsome guy in the entire world!

Third reason, he is just so pure that I imagine, if I will be together with him as a friend or a lover, I will be a bad influence to him. I mean, he is too innocent and too pure that I don't know if he is already on his early 20's or still a kid. And that is not in bad way. I feel like I just wanted to be with him 24/7 to protect him at all cost.

Fourth reason, he is too kind. In front of the camera, I always see an innocent, quiet guy and maybe a lot of people may think that it is just a cover up or mask he put in front of his face. But why do I feel, he is real in front or off camera. That he is too kind to be true. That he is the kindest person in the entire planet.

Fifth reason, and most probably the main reason, he is always down to earth. I mean, all of the members are definitely down to earth because they always feel like they still got something to show and to prove even if they have already showed and proved enough to all people who always criticize them but I felt Jun's inner thoughts. That he is the black ship of the group. That he is not worthy to be a part of the group. That he doesn't contribute to the fame of Seventeen or any aspect that can help Seventeen a better group.

His confidence is at its lowest point. But boy, Jun you are one of a h*** total performer. I mean, you will not be a part of Seventeen if you are not talented enough. But then again, I understand him because I felt the same.

Sometimes, even if I tried my best in doing something, I still felt like it wasn't enough and that I am the reason why all mistakes happen that were not suppose to happen. My lack of confidence on my self is my greatest downfall.

Jun always be like "I am the most handsome!" And because of that, some people always criticize him that he is so full of himself. But they do not understand. By saying he is the most handsome, it is his way of gaining confidence. It is his way of boosting his low self-esteem. It is his way for everyone to notice him, even if sometime, it is in a bad way.

JUN, all I want to say right now is that, you are at your best. Do the things you want to do even if others are trying to stop you from doing those things. You are precious to all of your fans as all members are very precious as well.

SEVENTEEN WILL NOT BE SEVENTEEN WITHOUT YOU.
SEVENTEEN WILL NOT BE SEVENTEEN IF ONE IS NOT PRESENT.

That is the funny part because of the numbers, you shouldn't be able to notice if one is missing. But with Seventeen, the stage felt an empty cup without the presence of one member.

JUN, you are a member of Seventeen and whatever your position is in the group, it is important. Because all members of the group are equally important.

Remember Jun, you are the JUN we always know and no matter what, YOU WILL ALWAYS BE SEVENTEEN'S MOON JUNHUI!

CARAT CLUB: SEAN CURT COLOMBA

SEAN CURT COLOMBA

"The Meticulous Leader"

"I loved you before, and I will always love you forever. You are the most important person in my life, and my friends know it kaya sana naman Ads huwag mo na akong ipagtabuyan."

Addison Avides is clumsy, unorganized, and an old-fashioned lady with her messy hair, big rounded eyeglasses, lousy T-shirts and below the knee skirt jeans at sa itsura at personalidad niyang iyon kaya hindi mo aakalain na isa siya sa mga tinitingalang neurosurgeon sa bansa. Mas mukha pa siyang toxic tignan kaysa sa mga pasyente niya kaya minsa pinagkakamalang siyang bantay lang ng pasyente. At mas priority niya ang kanyang mga pasyente more than herself kaya kapag niyayaya siyang lumabas at mag-inuman nang kanyang mga kaibigan ay lagi siyang tumatanggi. She also prioritizes her nephews studies than herself that is why she doesn't have the luxurious time to relax and to find a guy to become her husband.

But her priorities became distorted after waking up in an unfamiliar room with her clothes, undergarments and her personal things being  scattered around the floor and hearing a man's voice outside of the room singing. At nang tatakas na sana siya, hindi niya aakalain na ang greatest nightmare niya lang naman ang taong kasama niya sa aparment na iyon sa isang buong misteryosong gabi.

FOREVER a MARCOS

FOREVER a MARCOS

Well by the title itself, you already know what am I about to discuss in here.

Just by hearing the surname, MARCOS, for some, if not all, already shivers on their seats and cold sweats are already breaking down from their faces. Why? What is the surname, MARCOS, even mean to the people of the Philippines?

Well some will say, the Marcos name was the nightmare of the century in the history of the country because of the Martial Law.

But, MOST will say, the Marcos name was the dream of a glorious lifetime because of what the Former Late President Edralin Marcos have done to the economy and improvement of the country.

Don't try to contest me with this. Why? Who initiated the building of numerous government hospitals such as Philippine General Hospital, National Kidney Transplant Institute, Lung Center of the Philippines, Heart Center of the Philippines, Philippine Childrens Medical Center, to name a few, where all Filipinos are welcomed to make consult to highly qualified doctors and be admitted in lower prices. Who signed the papers to build different infrastractures for better living for all the Filipinos? Who made headlines to every Asian Country and even in the United States of America because of his achievements for his beloved country? Actually, there were a lot of countries including USA who were jealous of what he did to his little country.

It was President Ferdinand Edralin Marcos. The great president who did numerous deeds to make his little country to be well known across Asia and even across the world. But now, because of the minds of people being manipulated by some retards in the political world, his good deeds was overshadowed by countless bad deeds claimed by those jealous of his fame and power. Not to mention, the backlash he received when they framed him for assassinting the number one person who wanted him out of the position for being the president. 

And who benifited by the what they did to him? 

Them. Those who claimed who will bring back the freedom the Filipino community lost during the Martial Law.

But what happened after?

We gained the freedom we wanted, yes. But did that freedom did to us after?

Endless massacre raids because of the forgotten cause and promise by the mindless politicians who promised a better future for the country. Mediola Massacre, Hacienda Luisita Massacre, to name a few, were what the Filipinos gained after the promise of freedom. Martial Law was indeed a black turmoil that kept everyone freedom away from them but it kept us away from danger. But what happened after? Where were those promised the Filipinos a better country?

Well they were inside the palace, enjoying the luxury of being an official of the highest rank while watching the view of the sufferings and killings of many Filipinos. Not to mention that they maybe were the ones who ordered those bloody massacres and attacks to shut up all the mouths of those who fight against the new era of government of the country.

Now, there are still bitter people who claimed Marcos is still the darkest nightmare of the country ever had. But for me, the country is now facing its darkest era ever. Ever since those retards ruled the country, there was never a day wherw Filipinos enjoyed their food, enjoyed the breeze of the air, enjoyed the calmness of the surroundings. There were no single day where the family tried to look for food everyday because the prices of the daily needs of peoplw were getting higher and more expensive. There were no single day that all Filipinos should work overtime then the required time to work for government officials because money is more important than family now.

Many Filipinos now have to seek work abroad to give their families a better future. Because if they just stick into the country, where will their money bring them? A lot of Filipinis are now sacrificinf the joy of being with the family just to work in other countries to give their families their basic daily needs in life.

This is what the country became after the dethronement of Marcos. And now the young Marcoses are trying to bring back the glorious days of the country. For those who are still believing those retards, wake up my dears because you are still believing in the darkness of the cave. And for those who believe in the name of the greatest president, thank you for still believing that the lost fame of the country will be brought back by his descendants.

BETRAYAL OF TRUSTS

I felt betrayed. I felt mistreated. I felt I lost in a game that was full of mistrust and misconception.

I may not know everything but I do have feelings. Yes, I admit I trash talk about people behind their backs but I never talked anything about someone I learned to trust.

I felt cheated. I felt I lost a friend whom I help to get here. I felt I lost someone to trust already. I am not stupid not to see things and to know things. 

Who is "T"? 

Well I know. 

Me. 

Yes, those people whom I trusted betrayed me. But even if so things happened, I have never talked behind their backs. But now, see what they are doing to me.

I hurt people, yes, and I am guilty. Because I know I am not perfect. But the least thing I was hoping is for them not to talk about me. Because I have never done that to them. Even if after all that happened, I kept my silence and never said anything about them. But look, they are happily talking trash about me and even calling me a nickname.

Now, I know the feeling of being the center of talks by the people I trusted. That was why I told myself before to only trust myself, but I was carried away by their kindness. So after all, it was my fault and will always be my fault. Now, that I verified the only one I could trust is not on the same page as me, I might move on as well already.

It is easy to say but it is really hard to do. They thought I wasn't hurting by what I see, but deep inside, I am totally torned into pieces. And I guess, I already lost myself and will never be able to find myself, again.

SEVENTEEN! SEVENTEEN! SEVENTEEN!

SEUNGCHEOL! JEONGHAN! JISOO! JUNHUI! SOONYOUNG! WONWOO! JIHOON! MYUNGHO! MINGYU! SEOKMIN! SEUNGKWAN! HANSOL! CHAN!
WHOOOOOO!!!!

OKAY! STOP! Let me breath for a sec! WHOOPS!

Who even invented this fanchant?! Like seriously?! 😅😅😅

Let me just remind you, I am not a rapper but I guess shouting these names make me a good damn rapper!😅 Hoshi-sshi, I hope you are enjoying seeing your fans ran out of breathe and listening to them rapping out loud your precious names! 😊😘

For me, that was the most nerve-wracking fanchant ever in the history of Kpop. Why? Who would ever want to memorize all 13 names and shout them out loud without breathing within 5 seconds? Well I can only guess one particular fandom! CARATS!!!😁😆😲

Slipping into the diamond life wasn't an easy decision. Or did I even made a decision in joining this fandom? I guess I didn't. I just slipped into Sebongies life without realizing it. What did I say before? I slipped out of the Kpop world for few years but these 13 playful kids brought me back to the music I listened and adore the most.

I listened to their songs, watched their variety shows, searched their names on google, well I guess that was enough to say I slipped into the diamond life. But what made me realize I really stanned this group? When I heard they have a world tour and their last stop was no other than my precious country, the Philippines.

I want to go. I want to witness their live performances. I want to watch with my very own two eyes the beauty of their creative choreographies. I want to listen to their angelic voices.

And then it hit me, I really wanted to see them even just for once!

Remember what happened with my ultimate bias, 2NE1? I attended their concert, the All or Nothing World Tour last 2014 and I was really glad I attended. I might have regretted for the rest of my life if I didn't attend their concert because who would have really thought that the All or Nothing question will really be an All or Nothing period.

I felt at that moment when I learned about Seventeen's concert, I might regret if I will not go. I was afraid that even if they are still starting as a group, that would be their last concert here in the Philippines.

So I decided I should go. I will go no matter what!

But the problem was, where would I get money to buy a ticket? Was my salary enough to purchase even an Upper Box ticket? Well guess what? I just learned the word "iponing" and how to do it.

I realized I could really save money if I really wanted something. I did save money for the concert. I even did the last thing I could ever did, to ask for an advance pay! 😅😅😅 Well that was how desperate I am just to attend their concert.

But struggles didn't left me. Problem didn't stay away from me. Why? Because my next problem was, my desired seat Upper Box was already unavailable. Hmmmmm 🤔🤔🤔. Lower box ticket was too much for my little amount of budget. I was getting really down because I might not be really able to go to the concert. I was losing hope of seeing Seventeen for once. So I tried my last chance, asking on every group and marketplace online for an extra ticket for upper box.

I struggled a lot looking for a ticket. At least a cheaper one that was almost the same as the real price in SM tickets. Why? Because the others were selling their tickets in a triple price than the original price. Not to offend or bash anyone, but Carats please be considerable to one another. It doesn't mean that a Carat is desperately looking for a ticket, you will already put a lot of gold on top of the ticket. Because of this scheme, I was totally losing hope. I actually did lost hope already.

But a blessing came. My luck didn't abandoned me. A very genorous person did sell her ticket to me in almost the same price as the original. And I am really grateful to you (you know who you are so just comment down 😊). If it wasn't because of your ticket, I would not have seen my precious Jun and all the kids of Seventeen! 😊😘😭

But I thought buying the ticket was enough. Damn it! I missed the most important part, saving a lot of money for it to be wasted in buying a lot of goods during the concert. Huh! 🤔. My outfit should be perfect since there would be a fan project, to fill in the arena with rose quartz and serenity color. So even if I was really running out of cash, I bought a t-shirt(serenity color), a cap, a lightstick (but not the official Carat bong since I don't have enough cash to buy a 2K bong) and a customized, personalized phone case. These were the only things my money could bought. But little things do matter with Seventeen. So even if I have little things to show my support to them, at least I still showed it. For me my presence was way more important than any of the material things since the presence of every Filipino Carat was more important to Seventeen than any gift or materials.

And it's D-Day!!!!! It's time for Seventeen Diamond Edge Concert!!!!! SCREAM!!!!

Well the outside of the arena was really filled with screams and shouts from the ever excited Carats who were itching to see the precious boys of Seventeen! Even the guards and security of the arena couldn't hold down the hungry Carats for Seventeen's appearance. 😂😂

Well not until late afternoon did the Sebongies came and endless storm of screams filled the whole Pasay City!!! A bit exaggerated but when you were there, I guess you felt the same. Few hours to go and the concert will start. Excited Carats get up to their feet and started to line up to see the lovely princes perform every masterpiece they have released since their debut. Everyone was practicing the fanchants and of course, to perfectly rap their names while waiting for the line to advance. Everyone else was excited and giggled every time the line advanced. All Carats were overwhelmed that at last they would be watching Seventeen perform live!

Seven o'clock kicks in and almost everyone were already inside the arena. Official music videos of Seventeen were being played on the big screen and all of us were jamming to all the songs. I could really felt the excitement of everyone. Screams filled the arena. Overwhelming passion of every Carat to sing the songs showed their unending love to the group.

I realized I did not regret slipping into the diamond life. We were all counting every minute to pass by until BOOM!!!! Eight o'clock ticked!!!

Opening VCR with the ever gorgeous princes of Seventeen appeared on screen. They were really playful. I really wonder if they are really men already 😅😅.

Then a tick of a shoe was heard. Next thing I knew I was screaming hard!

JUN!!!!!!!!!!!

God bless my soul but hell yeah!!! Why are you so handsome Jun!!!! I can't even breath!!! You're so damn errrrr!! I love you!!! 😘😘😘

Then he was joined by SoonHoon!!!! Damn!!! Why are you so cute!!! Then BAAM!!! ALL SEVENTEEN PRINCES CAME OUT!!! I couldn't even hear my own voice because the arena was already occupied by endless passionate shouts from every single Carat!!!

The themepark opening was really playful. I just enjoyed myself watching all the members run here and there to greet the fans. Watching them enjoying the stage was more than enough for me. I knew they were very tired because of their continuous schedule but you could really see through them that they were enjoying every moment there is to enjoy.

YEPPEUNDA!!!

Pretty U was the first song. It was the first song I listened and the first stage I watched from Seventeen but stopped watching and listening in the middle of the performance. I am again sorry and I am very apologetic to Seventeen and Carats but I wasn't able to appreciate the song at first. But look at me now, who would have thought that it will be a song I will always treasure because of its meaningful lyrics?

The concert was getting hyped because Pretty U was followed by another two energetic songs, Beautiful and AKKINDA (Adore U)!!! Adore U's chereography was so much fun to watch. They were really excited on stage. I could feel they were having fun and that was how I enjoyed their stages, I also just had fun watching them. I didn't know where I should focus, on screen or on the stage? I guess I watched both since I have four eyes 😅😅!!!

But I was targetting particular members!!! I mean I was spotting more of the ships!!! 😂😂😂

And my ultimate ship, WONHUI!!!! RISE BOYS!!!! I love their cute interactions. I also spotted some JiCheol and JeongCheol and Junhao and Verkwan!! I am really sorry that I didn't have any pictures because I was too focused on enjoying their stages that I wasn't able to capture on my camera every single moment. I just captured all those precious memories inside my mind and heart. So if you want to share all your photos, please feel free to comment down.

Opening MENT and BooSeokSoon, the ultimate crazy trios were really crazy to watch. I love them! I just smiled the entire opening ment. My smile could even tear apart my cheeks because seriously seeing their generous smiles made me soft and just smile with them. All of them greeted their Filipino fans individually and tried to express some Tagalog words like "Mahal Kita", "Kumusta kayo". They were all sweet and sweaty 😅😅😅. They were cute while saying those Filipino words but I couldn't get enough of Joshua and Vernon's english 😂😂.

Next song was introduced and it was Still Lonely OT13 ver. They are the only group I knew as of the moment who can actually make any of their songs into an OT13 ver. Like for example, Still Lonely was a mixed unit song and also Highlight which was an original Performance unit song but they rearranged it and made it into an ALL ver. song.

Still lonely was followed by the ever, cheerleading song Aju Nice!!!!! 🖒🖒🖒🖒 Aju Nice is a very hype song and can be a cheerleading song since the chorus is really addictive. You just have to dance with it and shout it out loud, AJU NICE!!!!

Next song, it was the Performance team's Swimming Fool. Yeah right. We Carats are fool enough to be in love with you guys because you are all so adorable and dorks. Performance team will always be my favorite unit because I myself knows how to dance and dancing is one of my hobbies. Another thing is I really adore how powerful Performance team are when they are performing on stage. No doubt even the other members of Seventeen always tell no one among them could be compared to the passion of Performance team during practice and even on stage. And of course I have always this infatuation or close feeling to a dancer. Maybe my ideal type is someone who really knows how to dance well. That is why my bias is Jun and he will always be no matter what he does and what he says.

Another VCR played and showed the middle school aged Seventeen. I love their cuteness. It reminds me of my own high school life and I was still on the "NENE" days of my life. High school thought me a lot things such as decisions that I have never imagined I would decide on. I just hoped Seventeen's middle school life was the same as mine because if I am not mistaken, some of them started as trainees even before they could shout Mansae!!! I mean, some of them started as trainees when they were already in middle school.

MANSAE!!! MANSAE!!! MANSAE!!! HEY!!! The next song was Mansae!!! 😂😂😂 This song was really really fun!!! They really brought out their inner kiddos' life. They just have fun dancing on stage but damn, how could they still be in synchronize moves? I mean 1 sec they were just playing around then here comes the chorus and they were already dancing in sync. Only Seventeen could do that I guess. The highlight for mansae for me, it was DK's high notes at the last part while everyone else was waving their hands into the tunes of the song then DK suddenly hit that high note. My ears still couldn't get enough of that high pitch. Everytime I listen to Mansae, I always anticipates DK' notes at the end. And who could not know the famous "Mansae Wave Dance"!!! Everyone raised their hands and waved their hands to the Mansae Wave!!!! That was so fun actually.

BOOM BOOM!!! BOOM BOOM!!! BOOM BOOM!!!

The grenade drops and BOOM BOOM!!! Boom Boom is one of Seventeen's song with the hardest choreography and it was one of their choreographies I really wanted to see LIVE. Like how could they be in synchronize while jumping three times at the chorus and how could they make that kind of circle also during the chorus? This was the beauty of staying in Upper Box because you could really see the beauty of their formations. I mean I love their choreographies. They were done creatively.

Its MC time and for DE Manila, Dino and Hoshi became MCs for the night. They played together with us and the game was for them to imitate each other and whoever receives the loudest cheer amongst us will be the winner. So if I remember it correctly, Dino imitated Hoshi first by copying Hoshi's way of talking. I couldn't remember the whole details already. But Hoshi won the game by imitating Dino's part on Ulgo Shipji Anha'a chorus. He imitated how Dino executes the Ulgo Shipji Anha dance move during the chorus. It was really funny actually that was why everyone was screaming and Dino accepted defeat in the end. Of course, there was a punishment and that was to spell out their name through their butt. And Dino did it. Everyone was freaking and screaming hard. After Dino, we cheered on and shout out to Hoshi to do the same even if he won the game. And he entertainly did it for Filipino Carats!

SOLO UNIT PERFORMANCE STARTS!!!

Its VOCAL UNIT!!!

We Gonna Make It Shine (2018 ver.). It was their first song. Their angelic voices melted the whole arena. The sweetness and heavy emotions in the way they sing the song was so touching. You could feel the emotions in there and their desire to make every moment shine. Their harmony with each other felt like as if they are one and they really are one team.

Then the stage turned into dark with heavy smoke and frightening feel. Then 5 vampire prince take their positions and started to sing in their evil voices 😅😊. Don't Listen Secretly (Vampire ver.) really gave that feeling where you are being haunted by five beautiful evil princes through your darkest nightmares. Well I am willing to have nightmares every night just to see these beautiful souls. They are so talented that you wouldn't believe this unit is the dorkiest and noisiest one. They were really serious on stage.

BAAM!!! The atmosphere turned into heavy rock vibes. It was time for HIPHOP UNIT!!!

They started off with their mixtape release, Un Haeng Il Chi! Well trust me, what I just did the whole hiphop unit song was to head bangged with them and almost jumped with them but I couldn't 😂😂. I love hiphop because it always makes me high and energetic. So I love them!!!

Then its Check In time! Yeah I check in Manila City!!! Yeah right Manila city is on their song. All of us just sing along with them as they all move around and sing!!! Also the visual of this unit is undeniable. All of them are so handsome that I really wanted to hug them and kiss them on the cheeks! 😂😘😊😁

Another VCR played and there, my favorite unit, PERFORMANCE UNIT time to take stage once again!

OH MY GOD!!! OMG was the first song and I just had enough of watching them dancing on stage. I just sing along with them and enjoyed my life watching them dance. They were very synchronized and powerful when dancing. No doubt that they are called the performance unit. They deserve the name.

Then HIGHLIGHT was next!!! It was the remix ver. where I witnessed their dance break. No matter what they do in dancing and despite of continously singing and dancing on stage, they were still powerful as ever. I was kind of hoping that they will perform WHO because that is one of their songs I enjoyed the most but I guess luck was not with me.

We are almost halfway through the end!!! NOOOOO!!!! 😢😢😢

Yes. It was already second half of the concert but the energy of every Carats was still incomparable. The hotness inside of the arena was building and that was because Seventeen came back on stage on their red outfits.

Crazy in Love was the next song and yes, we are damn crazy in love with you Sebongies. Stop melting our hearts!!!! Damn it!!! 😂😂 The ending pose of the song was Wonwoo but was joined by Junhao because of the next song.

MY I. One of the very reason why I wanted to really watch Diamond Edge concert in Manila. It was because of this song. I knew this stage would only be performed once and that was through their entire DE concert. I knew that I will never be able to witness again that stage so yes, Jun and The8's duet stage was one of the most important reason why I watched the concert. The connection and bond of the two was undeniable. The choreography and the song itself detailed their brotherhood. The beauty of their performance was over the top. I really felt their connection with each other. I felt the happiness they had whenever they perform that stage. I saw the white rope will connect them through the time, always and forever.

Also Seventeen is the only group who actually gave a spotlight for their Chinese members to perform a solo stage in their concert. Other groups wouldn't do it. Only if there are really solo stages but for Seventeen, they maintained the solo stage for Junhao!!! THIS IS THE MAIN REASON WHY I LOVE SEVENTEEN!!! They always make sure that each member shine on stage.

Then it was Hiphop unit's time again to sing their unit song, If I. It was one of their songs that truly shows they are not born only to rap but were also born to sing. The hotness and sexiness during the ending received tremendous cheers and I am one of those who left out a very noisy cheer.

Vocal Unit was up to take on the stage once again and they also performed one of my favorite song of them, Habit. As always, they gave so much emotion on the song and the ending harmony during the chorus always gave me the chills.

They talk once again. I couldn't remember every detail actually because all I did during Ment portions was to laugh, scream and smile with them. I am not pretty much sure of what they talked about during this ment but I remember, they teased Joshua to do something again. Sorry folks but you are free to comment down if you remember anything about this ment. Then also only I could remember was them introducing their stage that would be full of hotness despite of the cold weather outside of the arena. Their next stages will be goddamn sexy.

And they were right, the two songs brought out their inner men outlook and performed two of their hardest choreographies ever, Rock and Chuck. The choreography was very intense and damn powerful but they maintained they synchronization. No doubt they always ran out of breathe when performing these two songs consecutively.

After the two songs, there was another ment and they were saying their goodbye already. They said that it would already be their last stage. NOOOOOO!!! They introduced the song as their best masterpiece and the song that really gained a lot of love and fans.

ULGO SHIPJI ANHA!!!

The main reason why I attended the concert, the song that made me slipped into the diamond, the song that made me realize my life is not yet complete. Don't Wanna Cry was creatively done and the story behind it was touching. The choreography was also beautifully created and their synchronize moves on this song was done perfectly. It was the song that stayed on my top list as my favorite song of all time. The meaning of the song was very emotional that at the time I learned about it, I almost cried. I did cried actually. So witnessing it live was very emotional that I almost got myself into tears once again. I just tried to hold back the feelings. They sang the song with so much emotion while performing the choreography with intense feeling of longing and separation.

Every Carat just sang along with Seventeen whenever the chorus hits. Ulgo Shipji Anha!!! But what stopped me was Wonwoo's part. No matter what, Wonu's part will always have a special part in my heart.

"How can I live as one if my other half is gone?"

A question that would make you think, how will I live if a part of my heart and soul is missing. Try to think about it. This part doesn't only pertain to a lost loved one or missing a certain person. This part could also mean something about yourself, about loving yourself, about finding yourself. You will never live as whole person as long as there is something missing in you but the problem is, you doesn't seem to know what is missing. That only means that you have to find yourself to make you live as one person.

For me who doesn't really have a special someone like that of what is describe on Seventeen's song, Wonu's part targeted my life, in loving myself, in finding myself, in completing myself. How would I ever live as one person if half of my life is still missing? And the fact that I do not know what is missing. Maybe I still have a lot of dreams to fulfill and I am also finding or rather, waiting for someone to complete me. That someone will one day appear who will listen to my sentiments, someone who will be my crying shoulder, someone who will always tell me that I am in my best condition and that I can achieve all the things I wanted to achieve. Maybe I am too emotional on this aspect but everytime I hear Wonu's part, I always think like that.

Also I felt Woozi or Seungcheol wrote this part thinking how would each one of Seventeen members live in the future if they would go on their seperate ways already. How would each Seventeen members would go on with their lives if the brothers they have treated as their own will be gone one day. Also, it is a message to all Carats that how would Seventeen live on their name if Carats will be gone.

Anyways, like what I have said the chereography was very emotional and the power Seventeen showed while performing this song gave every Carat a very intense feeling. The intro with Jeonghan's and DK's dance was very touching as well. In total, Ulgo Shipji Anha received tremendous cheers from the crowd.

ENCORE!!! ENCORE!!! ENCORE!!!

Then the VCR with Seventeen's message to all Carats played. I have heard some of those beside me cried because of the VCR.

Seventeen again stand on stage and performed the national anthem of Carats, Shining Diamonds! After it, the very last they sang was Healing. I even remember Seungcheol forgot to sing his part because he was having too much fun. During the ending song, Carats filled in the arena with Rose Quartz and Serenity ocean. Those who are on left side of the arena wrapped their Carat bongs with Rose Quartz while on the other side was Serenity. It was majestic actually. I wouldn't thought that the fan project to be successful. Seventeen did actually noticed the project. How?

After the song ended, they went on the main stage to sit and to give their final messages but before sitting, I saw how Leader-nim Seungcheol-sshi organized his kids to sit according to the ocean. I saw how he pointed on the crowd and explained to the members to sit according to the ocean. So unlike their other stages to which they have a certain sitting arrangement, all Seventeen members wearing Serenity color seated on the right side of the stage while the rest wearing Rose Quartz color seated on the left side. It was a sweet gesture if I say. Considering and appreciating the fan project was so thoughful, so thank you leader-nim, you are really the best.

Each and one of them say their thank you's to all Carats. The journey of Diamond Edge Concert ended that day and they were all grateful to all Carats who attended their concert. An end means a new beginning as I always say. The concert might have ended but Seventeen is only creating a new beginning. And that was after the concert, a new album would come out, Teen, Age album, their 2nd full length album.

The experience of the concert was very different. The excitement never subside the entire moment. I was sad because we have to say goodbye to Seventeen but I know that day would not be the last day I will see them.

And through enough, after a year Sebongies are ready to hit the Philippines once again for their upcoming concert, IDEAL CUT IN MANILA!! But the problem is I don't have enough funds once again to attend their concert. This is why I wrote this post because I wanted to reminisce all that happened during that day, October 6, 2017. Because I might not be able to see them this year. I just hope a good helping hand would give a ticket but that would be totally impossible except if you will notify Ms. Happee Sy about this post and she might give me a chance to meet Seventeen in person. 😅😅 That is how desperate I am to meet them again.

So for now, I am ending this post because it is too long already. Ms. Happee Sy I hope you read this and deliver my message to Seventeen: NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, WHATEVER DECISIONS YOU MAKE IN LIFE, I AND ALL CARATS WILL BE HERE FOR YOU OUR PRECIOUS PRINCES, ALWAYS AND FOREVER! 😍😊😗