Merry Christmas!

December 25, a date that each and everyone of us gathers and celebrates the birth of the One and Only Savior, JESUS CHRIST!

Every time this day comes around the corner, all people get their feet on the ground and bounce to their homes to celebrate this one of the most unforgettable event in their lives. We, as Filipinos and even other races believes that this is a celebration of close family ties as well as a happy memory to children because Santa Claus is also coming to town! Every day counts before Christmas for the families to prepare and welcome the birth of Jesus Christ.

This day is a celebration of families all over the world. Another good thing to do is to help and make all the people jump in happiness most especially the kids because of the blessings that they receive. Helping the people who suffered from great devastation of human life such as calamities will complete their happiness during Christmas day. Sufferings may be a part of our lives and that's the reason why we, who were given so much blessings and doesn't face great heartache because of losing loved ones, will give them much greater happiness and joy and this will make them stronger and fight until to their last breath.

This is also a day of forgiveness. We sinned, we make mistakes towards other people. We commit great sin that hurts other person's feelings. Thus, this time, if not a wrong time, we forgive each other because this is how we welcome him, Jesus Christ. Welcoming him with no sin, no mistake, no guilt, no cries, no sorrow will totally make his Father great.

So to everyone who are reading my blog, think of this, we celebrate Christmas every year on the day of December 25 but we face it with great despair and sorrow, then what is the point of why we celebrate it? So we need to celebrate this special day with a smile, heartwarming joy and endless love for Jesus Christ to be happy because he knows that each and everyone of us, individuals, families and communities celebrate his special day with the greatest and biggest smile of all!

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE!

tHe SiLeNt ChRiStMaS hEaLiNg PoEm

Liwanag nang Dilim at Pag-asa

    I.       Buhay na puno nang hinagpis

    Puso na sakit ang tiniis

    Ikaw na siyang nagdusa

    Liwanag na bigay nang tala.

    II.    Suot ang dignidad na hawak

    Ikaw ang nagging pag-asa

    Sa oras nang pag-higik

    Ikaw ang pumigil ng luha.

                Sa oras ng pangangailangan

   Ikaw ang siyang tanging sandalan

   Sa mga panahon ng kagipitan

   Ikaw ang siyang tanging kasama.

               Pinagpala ang kamay na dangal

   Pinaghilom ang pusong-bato

   Pinagtibay ang loob na bukal

   Pinasaya ang simbolo ng Pasko.

    III.  Ngayo’y ikaw ang siyang naghirap

    Nilamon nang sakit ng nakaraan

    Nawala ang lahat nang alapaap

    Nakulong sa mundo ng kawalan.

    IV. Ako na iyong inalagaan

   Ibabalik ang pagkalinga

   Dahil iyong sinabi minsan

   Pagmamahal ang siyang ligaya.

             Sa oras ng pangangailangan

   Ikaw ang siyang tanging sandalan

   Sa mga panahon ng kagipitan

   Ikaw ang siyang tanging kasama.

              Pinagpala ang kamay na dangal

   Pinaghilom ang pusong-bato

   Pinagtibay ang loob na bukal

   Pinasaya ang simbolo ng Pasko.

   V.    Ngayo’y sabay na haharapin

   Tanging hangad ay kaligayahan

   Pagtulong sa kapwa’y tunay na diwa

   Nang Pasko at nang bawat isa.

              Pinagpala ang kamay na dangal

   Pinaghilom ang pusong-bato

   Pinagtibay ang loob na bukal

   Pinasaya ang simbolo ng Pasko.

                   Nars ikaw ang liwanag nang dilim

          Ang tunay na bigay nang Maykapal.

LETTERS....

Another activity was done in our self awareness. Another bunch of words were express once more. Another outlets of feelings was poured down and revelations intensifies the pains of knowing what other people see through us.

Criticisms and judgments were once witnessed again by the innocent ears. But the good thing is, no one cries though I must admit I was very nervous on every detail that they blurt 'cause I'm actually at the bottom of the deepest secret ever. This activity once proved again the worth of friendship and trust with each other as well as cooperation and open communication that alleviates the moods of everyone. I must admit I wasn't able to defend myself from the negative comments but I myself already knew these so there's nothing to defend.

This activity showered us with the words of everyone in the group. It seems that this activity really challenges the strength and power of the bond of friendship as well as to break through oneself. But yes, we needed to accept every little word that we threw to each other because it is not enough that you know yourself, you can be better if you know what other people think and knows about you. We do things consciously and unconsciously thus we may not know every action that we do without listening to other. Consider them and don't disregard them, but it's up to you how you interpreted these painful revelations but I believe this will make you more stronger and way more better person.

Let me tell first what are those positive point of views of beloved people. First, I am PATIENT. Of course I am patient, why? 'Cause of these beloved laptop of mine where I am actually typing at the moment all these ridiculous, hilarious dramas of my life, it always log you know. But the truth is that I never expected to be a patient person 'cause I EASILY LOOSE CONTROL MY ANGER and that is one of their dislikes, and at the same time, I'm actually shocked that no one pointed out that I'm MOODY! I will tell you at once why am I like this at the bottom of this post. Second, I'm EASY TO DEAL WITH, KIND, HUMBLE, GENEROUS, FUN, JOLLY, RELIABLE and DISCIPLINED. Well I don't exactly know why I'm this kind of person, but maybe it occurs naturally to a person like the ones who told me these attitudes. One attitude cannot be reasoned out because this what you really are. Third one, RESPONSIBLE. I don't know but I'm not really that responsible enough because I only act upon instinct and worst, last minute work. But I must say that yes I'm responsible, why? Because I treated myself as an independent person when it comes to personal life and decision makings but as of now, not financially. Maybe if you give credit with all these posts, well just kidding. And the most shocking one that I myself don't even know if it's true, I have a SOFT-ANGEL VOICE! Well that's a first, I always thought my voice was like godzilla or gorilla because of the high pitch of my tone. And above all the positive comments I like, is being a TRUSTWORTHY PERSON THAT CAN EASILY BE TRUSTED WITH SECRETS. Well let just say I'm like this because I learned the ART OF SILENCE AND LISTENING. I will further explain this to you later.

Now we go to the negative comments that I've received in which I've already mention the first one. Second, INSISTING WHAT I WANT AND KNOW EVEN SOMETIMES WHAT I KNOW IS WRONG. Well sometimes we can be like this especially when it comes to defending yourself and even if you are a competitive person. But I never become competitive, I actually give way to those people I knew that deserves more than I do. But I accepted this and try to think first before saying. And this is actually in correlation with the third dislike which is, DON'T PROPOSE ANYTHING THAT IS DOUBTFUL AND IMPOSSIBLE, PUT YOUR WORDS INTO ACTIONS. Well maybe sometime, I can think of more something very unusual and mysterious then I can put them into actions, just kidding. And the last and best negative comment ever that even I, myself knew from the very start, BE OPEN! EXPRESS YOUR FEELINGS FREELY AND TELL IT TO ANYONE!

Yes, I am a CLOSE PERSON and I want to take this privilege to tell you why. The whole story started when I was in 3rd grade elementary. I was sick that day but I'd choose to go to school rather than absenting myself just because of this silly colds and fever. During the recess time, I am with my "friends" but that snack time turned to be the MOST DISASTROUS, SADDEST EVENT OF MY LIFE that humiliated and cause TO LOSE MY TRUST to every single person in the world including my parents. They talked about me whisper to whisper looking straightly in my eyes and I suspected that they are really talking about me. I got mad, went back to the classroom and everything seemed to be dark that I cannot see a single person, then they came. The bundle of friends whom I thought to be my real friends were actually grasping and looking anxious that their dearest friend was really sick. And right through there, I heard them clearly and saying, "CAN WE JUST BE HER FRIEND AGAIN!" SAPUL! What do you expect me to do? Accept that bitch offer? I AM NOT YET INSANE, MURDERERS OF FEELINGS! 

And that is were all began of the attitude of keeping silence. I choose this behavior because I'm afraid that this will happen again. Yes the ART OF SILENCE teach me to observe, criticize and judge silently until they will be the one to ask me. I've never trusted people again and stayed quiet even though I want to tell the world he/she is the dirtiest person! I don't wan't to hurt and I don't want to be hurt. But in high school I learned to be more open, but still I select what I say and not to tell everything and trusted people more. Up until now, but the difference is that I tell all my irritations and frustrations about a certain person to another person and not directly to that person. That's why I lack communication and this where complications started . And that is exactly the IRONY of everything. I don't want people to talk about me behind my back so I stayed silent but I myself is doing talking about other people to other behind their backs. Only because I cannot already keep silent and I'm bursting out of anger already. But I can do to remain silent then I will. But let me thank this ART OF SILENCE because I also learned to keep secrets.

I hope my friends will understand this. I have my fears that's why I remain a CLOSE PERSON. But I'll try my best to be more open now. Let me thank you for all the likes and dislikes, because if it's not because of these then I cannot improve myself. I know WHO I AM, but NOW, I know MORE WHO I AM!

Hurting Toe

A miserable, embarrassing moment occurred once more. My innocent, lovable, pretty toe was hurt once again. Why do my toe need to suffer like this? It pains me a lot whenever I see it bumped to those out-of-the-class solid walls.

It was today, December 6 at past lunch time, when I'm searching for a very delicious beverage to fill in my suffering mouth from thirst. Then I found what I'm looking for, the beverage that energizes me, as far as my friends are concerned, STING. But then, when I'm going back to my precious chair in the canteen to continue eating, I suddenly bumped that bitch of box of bottled water located in the middle in between the refs of beverages and glass wall container of so much carbs but really appetizing chicherias. How s*** is that?

My toe hurt the most. I'm lucky enough not to dumped my face in the ground and maintain my balance because I grip firmly on my classmate's shoulder. I'm also lucky because only my classmates witnessed my bad chic look embarrassment. But my TOE! It hurts a lot! I cannot even move my toe now. Well, not that I cannot fully move it, but the pain radiates through the veins of my toe and I cannot even dorsiflex or plantar flex it. My TOE! Once suffered again, when I was in high school and now, NOW!

This is all because of my clumsiness and forgetfulness. Am I aging now? ARGH! CLUMSINESS GO AWAY! LET MY POOR TOE LIVE NORMALLY WITHOUT PAIN AND SCREAMING!

MIDDLE CHILD SYNDROME

"Middle Child Syndrome"


Upon hearing this words, what can you think of? Can you have any guess on the meaning of this syndrome? A lot of people tell that this doesn't exist. But upon researching the net, I found out that I'm not the only one who suffered from this hilarious sickness.

Middle Child Syndrome occurs on those children who are born in the middle of a three-children family. They often get the least attention from their parents because the eldest gets all the attention and authority while the youngest gets all the love and security of the parents. So what's left with the middle child? NOTHING!

As I've already mentioned in one of my post, I am suffering from this syndrome ever since I went away from my dark past and move on with my new path of life. Though I didn't intend to got away from my parents most especially my feelings towards them, but it just occurred whenever I saw my siblings got what they want. As for me, I need to jump across the sea of nails, get through the hole of needle, fry and toast my face on a burning wood and shout my soul for them to hear. Even I've tried hard to get full attention, they don't seem to be bothered asking me if I do need anything. Because in fact, I do need a huge thing that cannot count by monetary means. I need LOVE and ATTENTION!

As day pass, I've come to realize, this is way better than to stick my body to them. I grew up independently except financially of course. Even though I'm still seeking for full LOVE and ATTENTION, I can now stand on my own and can do everything I want that my siblings cannot do. I'm proud of myself that I became a figure of freedom and self-discipline person. I may not be as perfect as what my parents would want me to be, but I can shower them with goodness and love that I've never felt before from them. I'm the only hope of this world, that's why this non-sense, jerk, pitiful syndrome will never ever stop me from soaring and flying high to catch and reach my dreams.

To all of you that experiences MIDDLE CHILD SYNDROME, never let this sucking sickness stop you from showering yourself love and happiness. As well as, never stop believing and conquer the gold for this is the only reason that we can make anyone proud and say "WE ARE VERY MUCH PROUD OF YOU!" The sacrifices and challenges that we've faced will just fade away and we will make them realize "WE ARE THE MIDDLE CHILDREN AND WE ARE YOUR LEADERS!"

PS: A little reminder to all parents out there, be observant and caring enough to know if you are giving equal attention and love to your children especially the middle child. Don't be the first jerk being afraid to talk to your child. BE SENSITIVE!