You might ask, why so
materialistic and who is materialistic?
I am. I wonder why as you
do wonder why. I thought a lot of it once I see a lot of unneeded valuables to
buy. I want this and that! But what I really want to have are gadgets from
cellphones to mp3s, accessories I fancy the most (necklaces bracelets, anime
stuffs), shoes from high heels to flat shoes to sneakers to high cut shoes and
most importantly the uncountable series of books! I deprived myself from
looking on these stuffs but what can I do? I am just an 18 year old college
student who wanted to enjoy the gift of life but lacks in fulfilling and
grasping them.
I hate myself from being a
materialistic person. Because of this, my hatred towards my mother grew and
still growing. I know to myself I needed to understand our situation in life
that we are in the average level of unsophisticated society of humanity. But I
do understand my feelings towards her that I love her, know the extent of our
living and the sacrifices she had been doing. But the materialism will never
end and will only end when I reach the adulthood stage where I will be working
for my own.
As of now, I do not want to
see her, although I wanted to thank her for her sacrifices and that I know what
she has done just to send me off and be here where I’m sitting right now while
typing this ridiculous drama of my nonsense life. It is so irritating and
annoying hating and loving someone at the same time most especially if it’s
your own mother. I do not hate her because she doesn’t want to send me a money
abut I hate the fact that she doesn’t show any attention and concern
towards
me.
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