Forgetting the pain of the past year.
Just forget everything and move on.
An easy statement to utter but really hard to do no matter how much you wanted it to happen.
Forgetting will never be easy. The pain. The scar. The wound. They maybe bare in front of everyone’s eyes but they are engrave in the deepest of one’s memory.
There are things that are just hard to forget. You may forget it temporarily but the pain of the moment will remind you of the things that you wanted to throw away. No matter how hard you try to forget, you just can’t.
As for me, I’d say if you can’t forget, then at least try to make those painful memories into life lessons. If you can’t forget the pain of the past, then make them your inspiration to be a better person than you are right now. Turn those wounded memories into healing experiences.
The year 2020 became a year full of fear and anxiety because of a deadly virus. The normal environment we used to live in change. We used to smile big and wide showing our whitest of teeth but right now, the genuiness of a smile and reality of happiness only shows through our eyes already. Before, only health care workers on duty were using masks as they attend to their patients, but right now, the mask became a fashion trend in every corner of the world already. We used to gather in large groups to celebrate special occasions of our love ones without thinking of anything but just to have fun, but right now, even eating without adhering to the recommended social distancing between two people is already a big sin, and posting on social medias which we usually do to extend our celebrations and showcase our happiness through our group pictures are already forbidden.
As the year passes, as the deadly virus continued to increase, the fear and anxiety of people increases, most if not all. Protocols, rules and regulations were imposed in every country to fight off and prevent the rapid spread of the virus. The crisis changes the people and the society. Though some still are not afraid of the aftermath of the deadly memory, people followed the necessary precautions because of fear and for the safety of their families.
In this year, the pandemic crisis is already engrave in everyone’s heart. A lot of innocenct people lost their lives. A lot of families lost their members. Our frontliners most specially our health care providers sufferred the most this year with sleepless nights and heavy duties. The pain brought by this crisis will forever remain in our hearts. We may tend to forget it as time goes by but history will make us remember the sufferings we wanted to throw away.
The memory of this crisis may never leave us but instead of crying over the pain of remembering the past, let us make this as a lesson to improve the health care system and prepare ourselves for any kind of crisis we may face in the future. Let us make our past a long lasting experience that taught us to become a stronger and wiser person.
As a personal ending note for this year, aside from the fear of fighting this pandemic crisis and serving the sick as a health care frontliner, this year drowned me in a lot of tears. There were personal problems I have to face which I almost gave up because it became too much for me to handle. I lost my grandmother and was not able to go home to send her peacefully. I deeply hurt a very dear friend. I blamed myself for a lot of things other people saw as useless things. I may never forget the scar, actually, I will never forget the scar but I will look into these memories as a reminder that I can get through even the hardest of time for my dreams, for my family, for the sake of my future.
So to everyone, we survive this year, we will survive it next year. No matter how deadly this year may have been for us, we will move on and stand up to face the fear of tomorrow. We will end this year with an open heart and we may face the upcoming year with a smile and positive vibe.
